issit really that hard to be myself.?haiiz i really really dunno.ya i kow that i might be quite blunt sometimes bud i carn help it..its juz part of miie euu see and what can i do right.sometimes i tell myself that i really have to change but.. haiiz i dunno.really hate myself sometimes..its onli when i say something wrong then i know but i juz carn control it euu c.*sighhs* is this a joke.even SHE says that i dunn have my own stand lar...i really really dunno how.what do euu want nie to do huh.do i have to please everyone what i do.maybe its best nort to say anything but then others will think im angry.gosh.hate this.

hmmm miie and aman waited for jac they all today cos their cher never cone ..then cheL went to cut hair with bec and georg..after that waited for jan too..bud then dunno y she never cone down then her phone left at home so...well.took class photo today and sorta wierd wierd feeling der..i juz dunn understand-
these few days also wait for jan during c.o..cheL asked was it cos i scared late.but i said nort really.well cos maybe when with her and aman then sorta feel very wierd.?i dunno.






i juz want to be myself